Six months have passed since I have been an active blogger.
Six months have passed since my life has forever changed. Since my family's life has forever changed.
How do I express what is on my heart and in my mind? Do I keep on blogging? Or not? Do I confine my scattered thoughts and emotions to my personal journal, there to shock, perplex or relieve only myself?
In the previous six months . . .
My daughter has seen more than a dozen doctors. Probably more than two dozen. Her symptoms have perplexed most of them.
My daughter has recently received a very rare genetics diagnosis. It doesn't even comprise a syndrome. Little is known about it. The doctors have told us what they can.
I have met some very good and caring doctors. And nurses.
My daughter has experienced a 12 day hospital stay. And I stayed with her.
I have learned so much about medicine, treatments, medical equipment, and my daughter's case in particular that I have confused both doctors and nurses into thinking I am a Registered Nurse. I am not.
We continue to search for answers to help my daughter. Yet I now realize that the answers will not come quickly, nor easily.
I realize . . .
That my daughter needs me so very much.
And that I love her enough to do anything for her.
That sleep truly is optional. Yet it is not completely. Sooner or later some of those sleepless nights must be made up for.
Food is optional sometimes. Yet when sleep becomes optional, a hot cup of Earl Grey tea is not.
That I am a better mother than I knew.
That God has been so very good to place me where He has, and He has placed so many of the people I need into my path right now. And I am grateful for my online friendships. Your prayer support and encouragement have meant the world to me. Blessings to you!
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ReplyDeleteI had no idea... I'm so sorry. Will be praying, Michelle! And, thank you for the reminder that His blessings come in rain drops and tears... this is one of my favorite songs!
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ReplyDeleteI just wanted to let you know that you continue to inspire me: to be a better mother and Christian woman. I pray for y'all daily and have put you little princess on the prayer list at church. My half grown scout wants y'all to know that we are praying for all of you and that the princess and her faith is helping him in his. If y'all need anything, even if it is just some one to talk to please let me know. Love, prayers, and Blessings, Sam~
I chuckled and sniffled through this post, Michelle. It's so pertinent, as I sit her at my daughter's hospital bedside after an expected night of sleep. My long comment just disappeared... but it all boiled down to resting in the Lord. Earl Gray tea (or Chai, in my case) is one of God's gifts!
ReplyDeleteBlessings. I pray for you when I think of you. (I believe that when you're on my mind, it's God's way of reminding me that you need some prayers today.) And big hugs.
ReplyDeleteThank you, dear friends--Annie, Heidi, Samantha, Carolyn, Cristy. I am moved deeply. I am wiping away tears now. I am weak, but He is the One who is strong. I am simply holding to His promises to bring something good out of our family's situation. Many thanks for your prayers and support. I pray the Lord's blessings on each of your families today!
ReplyDeletebetter mother and Christian woman. I pray for y'all daily and have put you little princess on the prayer list at church, He is the One who is strong. I am simply holding to His promises to bring something . My half grown scout wants y'all to know that we are praying
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